Stop Screwing Yourself Over

Your problem is not ideas, your problem is acting on those ideas. You are comparing yourself to everyone else and you still don’t feel good about yourself. Maybe you are going through something, maybe you feel like you’re not allowed to be free because no one will pay attention to you until you do something or say something they don’t agree with that they want to smite you on, or maybe you’re searching for something that you think will change the darkness you feel inside. You know that dark place, I don’t know what you call it but I call it ignorance. You go to it to ignore everything and anyone else including yourself, hoping God will show up and ask you to take Their hand.

You get into routines, some you created yourself, others are routines that you grew to be accustomed to, some micro-routines you do are old, you inherited them from your parents as they inherited some from their parents as they did from theirs - so on and so on - but the fact remains, your acts and views are all just to screw your self over and to have a good reason why you did it, some routines is to pass the blame around, blaming a certain group of people for why you can't succeed in life.

The worse part is that you lied to yourself that this is who you are and is who you have to stay as, for long as possible because is comfortable maintaining low standards of living. But don’t you want to experience something new, don’t you have dreams and goals you want to achieve in life?

You can’t afford to put yourself at the back like that and serve everyone else’s interests on top of your own. You don’t have to inherit the routines of being a servant and a slave to those who make you feel like you cannot be in the same class as them.

Maybe it’s the environment, you are surrounded by people, nature, and telecommunications that you barely understand and that clearly don’t understand you and what you’re trying to achieve so you walk around your vocation like are unlimited misunderstood being. Yet they preach that you can do and be anything you want in life.

Just remember, the way people make you feel is the way that you allow yourself to feel. They just giving you the validation you’ve been looking for all along, because you like being told who you are, and that you are not good enough for them. The sad part is you end using their validation also to screw yourself over even more.

It’s not worth it my friend. This is your life. You are not going to live forever. So stop screwing yourself.

Get yourself where you want to be, doing what you always wanted to do, and shut the noise out.

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